These last few years have felt like a whirlwind of emotions. I’ve felt lost. I’ve felt confused. I’ve felt betrayed. I’ve felt sadness. I’ve felt joy. I’ve felt great happiness. I think these last few years were very trying for me. I faced a lot of things that should have broke me but they didn’t and because I overcame those battles I finally feel as though I can live life much better.
I have finally reached a point in my life where things are good and I am at peace. My story has now reached thousands (if not millions) of people worldwide. By sharing my story I have been able to let go of my past. The past filled with much unknowns. The haunting past of everything I’ve been through medically and the emotional toll it took on me. That is the MAIN thing- “the emotional toll it took on me”. I grew up not dealing with my emotions the way I should have. So when I got the chance to finally speak my truth it was such a relief. In the documentary that was done I say “I didn’t think I would make it thirty.” That statement was something that I hadn’t said out loud like that. That statement is something I didn’t admit to my family.
For me it was my silent truth. My silent truth that I finally let out into the world with that documentary. When people see me become so emotional in that video its because that was when it finally set me free. In that very moment I was speaking my honest truth. My truth is now shared with the world. In that moment it was as though I was free from the past that had been holding me back.
I couldn’t have reached this point in my life without the loving support of my family and friends. They say family is forever and I’ve been blessed with a family that has ALWAYS been my support system. I’ve had friends who have helped me out so much and have stood by my side through everything I’ve battled.
I’ve struggled with my emotions and opening up to friends in the past. Sometimes I would shut down because I didn’t want to be a burden to my friends. Or I’d shut down because I didn’t have the words to express what I was feeling or needing to admit. The friends I have today have never given up on me. They have stood by my side when I was silently in pain. They have stood by my side when I didn’t have the words to explain what I needed to say. They stood by me when I was facing all these emotions at once and they would reassure me things were going to be ok. Or they would reassure me I would get through it and they’d be there right by my side as I did. And they have been.