After 1 year and 1 week, I finally got the call I have been waiting for. We are now weeks away from surgery and I feel as though a ton of bricks have been lifted from my shoulders.
I won’t deny the fact that with each day I became more and more worried about surgery. When you are waiting for something that important worry and stress are inevitable.
Even though I have a date, I still have to take baby steps and keep in mind that in 7 weeks things could change. It’s happened before and that was very difficult to get through, so I have to take baby steps.
With only 7 weeks left before the big day there are going to be a lot of things that will need to be taken care of. Whether its getting things around the house prepared or making sure that we have proper equipment when surgery time comes.
Now that I can no longer have anesthesia the same way as I have for many years I have to make sure everything goes right and they have the proper equipment for that part of the procedure. In my mind NOTHING can go wrong this time because I really don’t want to wake up after supposedly having surgery only to find out that we couldn’t.
I’ve come too far on this road for something like that to happen now. With every surgery there are risks and things that we need to keep in mind and every time I go in for surgery those thoughts are with me.
So for now I start counting down! T- 53 DAYS!