With surgery being 3 weeks away I just keep thinking about how much better I am going to feel after this surgery.
I don’t think the majority of people know just how much pain I have been in within the last few months. Pain is pain and I can handle it really well, but the last few months its gotten to the worse its ever been. I was never in as much pain with my shoulder as I am with my right hip.
I cut my hours back at work because I was doing way too much and my body just can’t handle it any more. I know I still overwork my body, but I am not the type of person to take it easy I have to stay active, it drives me crazy not too.
To give some examples as to just how difficult the pain has been for me lately here are some “for instance” examples. A lot of times when I go to climb into my car it hurts to try and move my leg over as I slide in. And when I come home from work or being out all day I literally come home and sit and feel as though I don’t have the energy to do whatever else I need to get done- I often sit for about an hour in my chair and relax and then try and get up to do the things I need to get done.
The least little turn of my leg literally makes me gasp out loud sometimes and sometimes I just have to sit for a minute.
One night a few months ago when my mom recommended me getting in the hot tub to help with the pain, I went to try and change into my bathing suit and it literally took me 20 minutes to get it on. Between my hip hurting so bad and me not being able to lift my legs and also that night my left shoulder was hurting so trying to change my shirt was extremely difficult.
And just last week I went to the store to do some shopping after work and I had to give up on pulling the cart because between my hip aching and me trying to pull the cart- it just wasn’t working out well for me. So I got what I needed then after about 30 minutes of being in the store and getting what I needed it was all I could do to walk to the check out line and back to my car. Once in my car I again had a strong pain sensation run through my leg as I climbed into my car which caused me to pretty much yell out while in the confine of my car. I later thought that I’m going to have to resort to the scooters at the store but I think even that might be too much for me to try and handle driving around a store.
I’ve literally gotten to the point where its my daily struggle just to do every day routine things and I can only sit and watch as the days go by and with each day I get one day closer to relief.